After years of harboring anger and sadness from my wretched life, this beautiful angel came into my life. She will now be gone for 4 months. Shes already been gone for almost 4 weeks. For a long time ,i pushed her love away, but now im finally allowing myself to "feel" once again.
I dont have to be a lovelorn-warrior with her. she opened up my heart, that has been closed with rusty chains for so long. I looked at her picture today, and ....er...um....cried a little. I cant believe it! How is this possible!? I feel so weak and vulnerable.....but in a good way. She has brought my demons to their knees. I miss her sooo much. My pain seems so small, but it has been replaced with longing.

Oh cruel fate! The once proud and noble warrior has been brought to his knees by love. I guess i wouldnt be the first........